Hey please don't wear your pajamas to class!

So I'm going to make this short and sweet.  Please don't wear your damn pajamas to class.  It looks sloppy and let's me know that you have yet to wash your ass this morning, which is disgusting!  Stop it!  I don't know what makes people think that just because it is allowed for you to walk into your college lectures with your choice of clothing, doesn't mean that it's ok.  Take your smelly ass back to your apartment or dorm room, wash up and then return to class.  Thanks.

Can I just vent today?.....

I'm in a relationship with someone who i have waited to be with my whole life.  I love her with all of my heart and soul.  I love her so much it scares me.  I've NEVER been so afraid to lose someone.  I spoke to one of my friends who told me that if there was no fear coupled with my professed love then it wouldn't be real.  If you are afraid to lose them then that's real love.

I know things are not perfect between us and I guess that's because we've always been each others oasis and then we leave and go back to our normal lives without each other.  But now she is a part of my daily life and we do annoy each other and get on each others nerves and need space and are not all smiles all of the time.  But I am not used to this routine like life with her.  I guess my fantasy of what "we" would be like is much easier and carefree than the reality of the situation.  all that being said I still love her so much and am willing to work hard to make this work.  I can see myself growing old with her and even having children, something that I never would have thought about before.

I guess now that I am graduating and starting my adult life I am afraid and feel pressured for everything to be perfect when honestly it's not going to be.  But I have to admit I miss those days when i felt like nothing else in the world mattered, but us.  And the way she used to look at me and make me blush.  I just miss the honeymoon stage and I am not sure how to handle our relationship maturing.

And she doesn't communicate with me and is always sad looking so it makes me not want to bring up the fact that I just need to feel more loved.  I know she loves me you know what I mean?  I KNOW this, but I need to feel it and I just feel like she doesn't understand that.  I don't know how to make her understand.  I'm already under so much pressure with school, work, financial, and to add my relationship into the mix really sucks.....I know she can't read my mind, but sometimes I wish she could.  When I lay with her at night and fall asleep on her chest.......my heartbeat matching her heartbeat.......I'm always hoping she can feel what I need from her...........I don't think it ever happens.  She is the one.......I just want her to show me how she feels about me and not expect for me to just know.

EVERYTHING YOU DO IS MY PET PEEVE!!!!

Let's talk about my pet peeves today.  How about I just make a list.....

this is what pisses me off and irritates the fuck outta me!

• tapping your fucking foot constantly when you are sitting next to me.  
• smacking your damn gum in my ear and popping 30 fucking bubbles all loud like I want to hear that shit!
• clicking your pen on the desk when I have to sit next to you and can feel and hear that or tapping your pencil too
• biting your nails and flicking them off next to me or chipping your nail polish off throughout class.
• not covering your mouth and coughing or sneezing all over everyone.  if you are sick stay the fuck home.  I don't want your Aids!
• standing or sitting way too damn close to me in a line or in class where I can feel your breath...ugh!
• expecting me to personal shop for you at old navy.  I make chump change per hour so don't expect to spend 97 cent and have me personal shop for you like this is a Beverly Hills Boutique!
• wearing clothes that you know you cannot fit!
• calling me 12 times in a row....if I ignored you the first time I'll ignore you again if you get ignorant!
• over thinking my niceness.....I'm being polite no I don't want to get with you!
• making me ask you to do something more then once....just do it bitch!
• coming around me with body odor.....enough said.
• being cocky about the material things you have....learn the definition of humble and shut the fuck up!
• being overly into yourself....fuck you....everyone doesn't think you are beautiful!
• sleeping all day.....lazy and I hate it.
• not ironing your clothes.....wrinkles are not sexy to me
• being fucking cheap all the damn time...I'm am not a bargain basement chick...get the fuck outta here!
• fucking up my food order when the menu is all pictures like at fast food restaurants.

there are probably many more but that's what I got now....so now you know, so please don't piss me off.  Thanks.